since i was 10 i have prayed. it's been on and off. 'off' being at college when i was partying it up. then it did not feel right to come back and worship after a night of debauchery and mayhem. many times in my life, i would rush through prayers, paying more attention to the thoughts running through my head, than the words on my lips.
but, for the first time since i was 10, i have given up praying altogether.
i do not yet know why.
other than the fact, that should there be a g-d, it has forsaken this land and its people entirely.
